Lately, I’ve found that I have an incredibly difficult time forgiving people who’ve done things to me. For example, one of my so-called best friends did not defend me when there were some rumors about me going around last semester; so much for being friends, right? And I realized today that it doesn’t matter. I am graduating college in seventy-something days, and you know what? I’m not going to worry about her inability to be a good friend in a time of need. I’m going to get over it and focus on the girls who do love me, who will defend me, and who would never even think about believing things that could never possibly be true about me. Or say them. Or repeat them. Or start them.
There’s a passage in the Bible, Matthew 6:14-15, that says, “For if you forgive men their trespasses, your heavenly Father will also forgive you; but if you do not forgive men their trespasses, neither will your heavenly Father forgive your trespasses.” I’m not usually a big Bible quoter — It’s just not my style, y’all. — but reading that hit me hard. I don’t want God not to forgive because I can’t get over something that won’t matter in … twelve years ago, so I’ve got to get on this forgiveness thing. It’s not going to be easy, but I’ve got to let it go.
I know that doesn’t have anything to do with anything, really, but I thought I’d share :).
Oh, and the title is from “Mary Go Round” by Myla Smith. If you don’t know who she is, you should, and you should probably visit her MySpace page.
Okay, love you, mean it.
