After graduating college, it was hard for me to feel like I did anything but leave my life behind. And all I want is my old life, the only one I knew for four years, back. I want to be home with my friends. I want to be busy all the time. I do not want this pathetic excuse for a life that I am living right now. I do not want this big pile of nothing that is supposedly my life.
Indiana is not a bad place, but it’s not where I want to be. It is not where I belong. I belong with my friends; I belong somewhere I can be completely happy. I am miserable here and all I want is to get out.
I am trying so hard to be patient, but this is the hardest thing I have ever done in my entire life. I am trying so hard to be optimistic and stay positive. I want to believe that I will find the perfect job (and soon) and get out of here, but it’s so hard not to get completely discouraged. All I want is a job that gets me out of here and back to the person I am supposed to be, not the person Indiana is making me.
Please, please, please say some prayers for me because I am not sure how much more of this I can handle. I just want to go home.
